before i wanna start again .. i wanna tell u all something ,
just now , i received a sms from jackie ..
he said tat the case tat i was vomitting blood was a lie, he asked me stop to tell this lie
tats all i wanna say
bye

Jon : Such a harsh day I see ; The rule visiting a blog, believe or not have it your way. Anyway, if you don have a prove, do not accuse until u have one! Prove it before you accuse the writer. Kin! You don really have to bother about msg left by reader

This was extracted from a used-to-be very-important-person to me . If you wish to see well , the blog is at my linkie there . I'm sure everyone knows his name right ? Hehe ...
When i saw this i wondered to myself , when i smsed him about this thing straight away he posted in his xanga ... but during this 3 days , i called him for i dont know how many times until my ears turns red and sms him lotsa times and he did NOT reply ... why dont he post it ? I'm sure everyone knows the word pity ? Well , make use of the word in this case . If i'm the one who put this message in my blog , im sure everyone will think the sender is such a jerk and will start to pay more attention to me ... oh ... im just saying only ... im not sure also ... haha ~ but horr ... without the wind .. how would the tree shake ? Im really sorry if i offended too much in here and later on ... Can i ask something dear readers , how far can a trust go ?

There is something i wanted to mention which is why does anyone want to care bout my nonsense my craps my rubbish my useless meaningless word if its not true ? If its not true then just let it be . Justice shall be held . Truth will eventually be seen . Im not trying to target to anyone but sometimes money is so powerful it can control alot of things . Eventhough it can buy alot alot of unexpected surprising stuffs , but its not everything . Money is the root of all evil . It can be use to buy a diploma cert , degree cert , and so many many other certificates too . Even my friend had bought it before . Cool ? Hihiee ... and as mr jon said , believe it or not have it your way . Then believe my words or not just have it your way too . I cant blame you for protecting a friend . Im sure everyone will stand up against this kind of things . But can anyone , anyone at all make a big prove and evidence that everything is real ? I think no one ... but only The Lord Himself ... remember i did not make things in such a big fuss ... but since this thing is brought up to the internet , therefore im just like everyone trying to protect in what they believe in ... its not your fault its not my fault either ... its not anyone but just the imperfection of human nature ...

Love is everything ~ Im sure everyone had heard of this ? But have you ever see the real thing ? Let me highlight it for you all Love Is Everything ~ LIE ~ Balancy in everything is so important .... however the most important person in everyone's life should be their parents . No matter what happened the parents will always be there for them . They are the one giving the most sacrifices to us more than anyone else in this world ...

Oh ~~ by the way , i already found out kin blocked me in MSN . As if was quite eager to know why he din't online for such long time ... i asked a number of friends of mine and yeah ... he is onlined .. oh with the name " Kin wants justice " ... and yeah ... i blocked him too just in case ? hiHehie ...

God The Almighty has His eyes open all these while . He knows what is happening all these while . I'm sure He will give his judgement one day ... soon ....

Eventhough we were so called the sweet and cute couple last time ... but we were just merely in a virtual world's relationship . I've never hold his hand , kiss him , bring him out for a date nor even meet him in real . Through out this months i'm with him i always requested to meet him . I don't really mind if i should be the one who take the initiative but from one excuse to another excuse ... i just never get to meet him . From the month of May , i waited till June to July to August to September to October and finally November . I was trully excited that my STPM is over and finally , im able to meet him during the december . It was one of my greatest wish for this year ... to have a sweet pleasurable time with him alone .

Still remember the kinakajack.blogspot.com ? Well , its so cool that kin deleted it . Yoz ~
That is the place where i stated what i wish to do with kin in the future . Yea , its always fresh in my mind . Everything i was really really hoping it would come true . But just like kin's last xanga's title ... Dream dont come true , the unexpected will ... i guess its true huh ? Hehe ...

Anyway kin , if you read this ... here is some messages for you ...
It's been great being with you for this 6months . It's really great that you gave me an unforgetable experience . Always when im down you brought me up ... you are just like a medicine to me . No matter what happened to me , you just need to give me that miracle call and that's it ... i will be totally alright . I do admit we have alot of problems and arguement . Each time gettin more serious and troublesome . However , we manage to overcome it .
You know what hurted me the most ? One word that you said to me ... " i am very regret to know you but i am not regret to have you as my boyfriend " ... until now , i never understand and i dont think i wanted to know the meaning . At least i can tell you , i never regret knowing you , i never regret having you , i never regret being with you , i never regret loving you ... i only regret im not able to love you enough to change your thinking . Oh ... how blind is love . Even till now , i still love you so much . Just that , i'm not the one for you . I know i wont be able to take care of you . I cant make it . Im sorry . 2 loving people doesnt mean they have to be together . As long you are happy with your life ... its great enough .
You gave me two ring and you asked me to wear it permanently . I guess i will only wear the first ring you gave me permanently ... as for the second one , perhaps i should return it to you or just keep it somewhere safe . The first ring that you gave me , it really contains so much memories for me .

Now now now ... right here , i wanted to thank so many people who has been with me all these while . Never stop advising me and supporting me . None of these names are arranged in orders of importanty ... just when they come through my mind i wrote it down ...

Chris , thank you so much . You are still always the very special one . From last time till now , you have been with me . You gave me really great advises . I know i know ... i might listen and learn it a bit late but at least i learned right ? Thanks for accompanying me this few days . Its so fun and gladful im able to meet you back . So missed all the old times . I was quite shocked you still remember bout me ... even my favourite colour you still remember !! Honestly , so proud to have you in my life worrr ...

Joe , you too have been with me all this while . You just knew it whenever im not happy . I really know you tried hard to cheer me up whenever im upset . Just sometimes im very bossy so need more cheering than usual de ... haha ... troublesome to you hor ? Just want you to know , im a very easy guy to be pleased . Not everything need to be in money matters . I will be happy even small little matters . Just give me one sms to ask me bout my condition would make me happy also lorrr ... as long to know someone is still there for me .

Axel , i knew you not really long ago but i felt like its so long already lorr .. woof ~ Its great to know you in life too . I always said that you make me happy whenever i talk to you its true de . I was quite surprise when you get really serious with me . You are just like another guy in that body . Perhaps you are a counsellar ? That is why you are matured to me in alot of ways . Your advise somehow differ with alot of other peoples oppinion . Its great ... i know you will be leavin to UK soon .. perhaps wont be back ? Its sad ... its sad it had to be like this ... hope you will always be happy =) duckie ...

Lawrence , you are really hebat . Whenever im sad you sure know one . Never able to get away from you . You just have the 6th sense huh ? Eventhough most of your advises i already heard it but im still glad you are willingly to help me all the time . So sorry to waste your credit because digi to maxis ... of cause finish in a second laaa ... so glad to know you too . If not i also dont know how lee ...

Wai Hoe , i dont remember how i knew you also . I think its someone who gave you my address right ? This superman , really just man only . Thats all he knows . He tried to make me happy eventhough he is not so good in cheering people up . Im so glad . Oh yea , the thing that im so happy is that he knows i love puppies so much . Thats how he really cheered me up . Digi user who finished his credit because of me too . Feel so bad ... =p

Xxx , he don't let me mention his name so i just use xxx lorr .. this fella eventhough has a typical moody sometimes ... but he is still a great friend to be ... im always kinda cheer up with his cute voice and style of talking . Haha ... thanks worr ...

Wei wei , i know you will surely beat me if you saw this name . Eventhough i knew him for such a short time , he is already one of my very 38 friend . During the time to 38 , its so fun to be with him ... whenever i have troubles ... he will totally change his personality too . Very serious and matured kinda guy . Just too bad cant really talk with him often .. what to do ? People always sleep till 2 3 pm ... just like those old farms pig ~

Bibi , you will never be forgotten no matter what . So sorry for all these while . I know its rather dissapointing huh ? But don't worry , i know what to do de . She is really one hella net fren of mine . Always be there for me . Never tired of helping me ... wow ...

Azmad , it was your birthday yesterday , yet im unable to make it to call you to wish you . I felt terrible . I just couldnt make it .. forgive me alright ? So right here wanna wish you happy happy birthday ~ Hehhe .. i know he really likes me alot . Yet sometimes i dissapointed you badly huh ? Sorry boy .. he also have been with me all these while . Eventhough not really good in cheering people up but his heart ... just great ~

Suki , this lenglui from holland ... treat me really really nice . One of the pretty pretty and nice nice heart girl lo . Always treat me like prince . Whatever also will listen geh .. hehehe ... =p

There are other people who i would like to thank and apologize to . They have been there for me so well yet i've been so ignorance to them . Im sorry Leong , Edison , Jeun Shen , Kenny , Edmund , and several others which i dint listed down . Thanks to Kuan Shien , Tracy , Chi Chung , Kar Lai , See Meng , Mun Choon , Chin Siong , Yee Leng , Lam , Chieh Yee , Chong Yew , Mel , Andrew , Isaac , Huey Juien , Debbie , Wayne , Jake , Winson , Yau , Kar Kiat , Kelvin , Kel Vin , Jovy , Voon Kiat , Mimi and alot alot people who always be with me till now . Thanks yoooh ...
One more person name Ying Yin , she is on hella good fren . Sadly she is going to shift to Penang by the end of this year . Seldomly will be able to see her again in the future . Hmmm ... =)

Sorry again if im being very offensive in this post . Hope you will understand .