Price for petrol and diesel will be raise up to 30 cents more right from today on . Alamak !! Good thing i went for full tank just now . I don't think I'm able to afford it anymore . 2 cars .... sigh ....

Anyway , i was quite surprised that one of my ex , Leon , called me yesterday ! He called my house and asked whether if my place is flooded . Haha ... I'm quite happy that time . I feel like someone still care for me though . Wooo ... thanks . For everyone's information , Shah Alam is a huge area . My place is section 25 and its free of flood ! ~ Happeee ...

Later have to wake up 8am . Need to go to Nirvana Memorial Park to visit my mother . Going to have a ceremony but i'm not sure for what though . Anyway , maa .... miss you very much . Love you always and always =)

6 Days Has Past since the last i blogged . Does anyone really miss my blog ? Does anyone really came in to read bout it ? Hmm ... i guess this is the question that every blogger will ask themselves . Anyway , days has not been easy with me recently .

On 22nd of February , I planned ahead that I will make a call to Marcus . After chatting with him , spilling out every feeling of unsatisfactory of mine to him then I will slowly forget bout my feeling towards him . Yet that is just my plan .
Night , I called him . I got hanged up for I-Don't-Know-How-Many-Times . After minutes and minutes of ringing , finally he picked up . Yet I got Scolded ! First time ever in my life , he scolded me . I was broken . Fully broke into dust . Haha ... then 2 hours later , he called back . He apologizes to me . A big one too . I was so speechless back then . Yet , the convo runs better after sometime . I finally get to spill out all my feelings . Not all but most of it . I really felt much better . After this , I should do what I should be doing . =)

Been doing nothing much . Just went out or stay at home due to ke-pokai-an . Haha ... Friday was Jeffrick and my sister's birthday . Older one year liao lo ... while saturday was Jack's birthday . I felt so bad i couldn't go to meet Jack . Wanted to buy him present but i was out of cash ... so just delay la .

As for yesterday , went to Midvalley for a job training . We're going to promote our product on the KL Marathon event coming soon . Gonna start working from thursday till sunday .

Oh well , not much mood to blog liao . Sick sick ... today is worst . First time ever in my life , i had a nightmare . I woke up from that dream and i was totally sweating . Then i can't move . You know .. those feelings ? Like having something sitting on you ? Just couldn't move . Sigh ... i was freaking out . Cause this ain't the first time i got the feeling but it's the first time during the night !! When i get to move , i quickly woke up on the lights . I went down and just watch tv . I was freaking out . No idea why . Sigh ... 4am i was awaken . Watch tv till 6am then went online .
I was kinda happy that refuel and axel was there for me . Chat with them awhile till sunrise then i went back to sleep . I was so childish huh ? Haihz ...

Anyway , i'm so tired now . Oooo ~

Ok got the shocked of my life just now . It's very true that everything happened for a reason . Though i could not find some of it but i wish in time i will .

Today , my dad and my elder brother came back . I was surprised . Surprised why they came back today so unitedly when they don't for these weeks . I thinked and thinked .... finally i got an answer . Tomorrow will be the 100th day of my mother's death . Its already 3months ... yeah ... time passed so fast .

My mood and emotions are raging to climax recently . Depression sadness dissapointment ... everything came to me . I will and i shall settle it by this week . Let it all end . Whether i've been played or not . I wanna know the truth ...

First of all , Happy Single Awareness Day ~ Hahah ... obviously that includes me . Well , nothing bad about being single right ? We are not alone , many people out there who is still single yet enjoying their lifes . At least being single , we can focus in our education and career . At the same time , saving our finance matter . Hehehe ... It's really true right ? Giving away 4 present per year will really make a hole right through our wallets . Christmas , Valentines , Anniversary and Birthday presents .. wooo hoo ~

Well , how's my valentines ? Eventually i was supposed to celebrate it alone this year just like every year i do . However a guy asked me out during the afternoon to Time Square for a movie n lunch . Yeah his name is Leo . A guy that Freddie introduced to me the other day . Though i enjoyed my lil time with Leo , but i felt something missing . My heart is utterly confused . Dilemma to be exact ...

During late evening , Jack came over for me . He passed a present and treat me dinner . It was simple but i was very happy . Had a long talk with Jack ... it didnt turn out to be very good but it wasnt the worst . It should be for the best of us . I just hope he will still be there for me though we're just friends for now . Also that he will be able to get over himself from the past and start a new life ahead .

You might never knew this but Jack , everytime you smile at me and said " Don't think too much " ... my heart will smile with you . It's so sweet . A feeling that i get whenever i see that someone smile at me . It was already past but its still so fresh in my mind . Many would say why would i still like someone who already has a bf now . I would skip the question as i do not know how to answer . All i wish is someday he would still smile at me =)

Wanted to post something very lame ... just made it some minutes ago while im so tired and sick ... just wishing everyone a happy valentines day ... valentines is just bout celebrating with your love ones . Not neccessary its your lover but love ones ... which mean anyone could be it ~ =X

Though i hope that i can celebrate with someone ... ya ... among many many people there is one person that i wish to celebrate with ... i dont think he will know about my feelings . I just hope he and his bf will have a great year and time together now and then =) i guess i would be alright if he still remembers me and keeping those nice things about me .

Currently feeling not well . Eyes paining , headaching and just vomitted . Feel horrible ...

Yesterday , met an old friend , Alvin , in Pyramid . Finally he chose this life . He had a boyfriend now just recently named Freddie . Yeah , first time meeting his boyfriend , I got a shocked . He looked totally like Chun Hao . Not only the way he looked , the way he talked to me , the way he looked at me , the way he smile and laugh , the way he post for pictures ... so much similarity to Chun Hao . I know it might sound very overwhelming but its true . I asked Freddie does anyone say that he look like Leo Ku . Guess what ... he say he had heard this thousands of time . Which Chun Hao also looked like Leo Ku . Sigh ...
I almost cried there ...

When I reached home at 2am like that ... i started to cry . I was alone again . Always alone in the room . My father has never been home since the starting of chinese new year . Even today , he came back for dinner and he went out again ... i know what is happening but i never blamed him . I just hope he can start to tell us ...

Today , Chun Hao called me . I was surprised as i was crying then . I wasnt that happy because i know my friend asked him to call . I guess he never wanted to call me anyway ... it felt so fu him . Maybe i thinked too much ... maybe im right . I will never know . Just that im very suffering now .

Just a few pics that's taken recently ~

Izzinit cute ? It's the McD's toys for Valentines ~ bLeuukkk

Tracy and my cute nephew ~

Once again !! My cute nephew J-boy ~ hiehieh ...

This is J-boy's lil bro Ah Jun ~ Hieheihe ....

Rohnie and me at ktm ... so Wu Liao ~

My kai gor Javaron , at summit ... funny that he still remember me ~ !!

oK .. obviously this is me being Zhi Lian .. hahah ~

Got caught in my sister's house ... hIHee

A gift from Jeffrick ... so nice le ~ i like so much !

My nephew's toy .. haha ~

Here I am
Once again
I'm back into blogging ~ =x
" Modified from Kelly Clarkson's Behind These Hazel Eyes "

Alrite let me continue from my last blog laark ~
Went to Lowyat with Jeffrick for lunch . As I promise i will treat him . Hehe .. he brought me to Chim Sui Wan to eat lor . Really nice .. not bad lark ! After that , just go walk walk and then he drove me to my sister's house in Sg Long . Even when my Godparents invited him for a tea , he insist that he had to go . Hehe ... I think he's shy . Haha ~

That night , my father's side relatives are having a reunion dinner . It was fabulous !! I get to eat the Gai Mei Jau !! Though lotsa males don't like it , but i love it . Hmmm ~ Played Rami with my aunties till midnight before going home around 1am .

1st of February ~
My friend , Rohnie from Penang , came to KL today . He reached around 5am in the morning . His friend drove him to my place around 1pm and we went to Klang for Bak Kut Teh . Went home after that and just rest rest and rest . Haha ...

2nd - 6th February ~
I've been hanging out all time for these few days . No time for home and rest . Don't even have enough time to sleep . Haha ... Either went for shopping , eating , karaoke-ing , cinema-ing .. etc . Really spent alot of money not only me but Rohnie too . Haha ..

Oh ya , on sunday night it was the night of " Bai Tian Kong " for all the chinese . My friends and I are catching up a movie at 11.55pm . It was still early so I brought them to Ming Tin next to The One Academy for supper . Damn ... we're lucky ! We saw fireworks there and ... its around 5minute fireworks ! Hehehe ... awesome ... so nice ler !

On monday itself , I brought Rohnie to Lowyat to get my hair cut . I was satisfied once again after cutting . Hehe .. At least I don't have a Chicken Nest on my head again for now . Then Rohnie brought me to KLCC for dinner in Chili ~ His treat on me . Nice huh ? Hehehehe .... did I mention Rohnie bought me Polo wallet for me ? Still I don't think it's cheap . Hmmm ...

He went home on tuesday . I accompanied him until the Pudu bus station . After he left , I went walking around ChinaTown . It's been such a long time since I've been here . Funny thing happened that time ...
While I was just walking and drinking my Longan Ice ... a cute guy came to me and asked whether I wanted to get some new Dvds . I shaked my head signing a no to him . Then he came and walked beside me and asked whether I wanted some 5 star porns Dvds . Once again I smile and looked at him and said no thanks ! Hell , this time he hold my hand and guess what ? He asked me is it I'm looking for some gay porns ?! Hey ... do I look really that gay huh !! Damn ... I keep laughing back then ... *sweat* ...

At first I did asked them ... you really got sell ah ? How much per piece and stuffs ... then the other guy looked at me and said I don't look gay at all . Haha ... he said that he saw me before in Times Square as I've been there quite often recently . Hmmm .. nevermindlark .. they are quite cute also . Haha ... had a nice chat there ... then I just went home and sleep !!

On that night , I found out that I lost Rm100 from my wallet . I don't know where have it gone but ... it's really gone ! The only way it could be gone it's during the time I'm in Chinatown to get some food . Sigh ... feelin so depressed bout it !! That sum of money can get me some new clothes lee ! ....

Anyway , yesterday I went out to window shopping alone . Felt so boring so I went to my friend's house in PJ . Talked with him a while then I felt asleep . Haha ... too tired i guess . Suddenly the housemate came awaken everyone just for dinner . Lolx ... Went to eat McD at SS2 ... though it's a simple day but i enjoy my day alot . Really happy but tired le ~

As for today , will go for job hunting again at taipan later . Hope to get some jobs le . Actually I'm waiting for the Digi pending list . Sent a resume for now . Just have to wait for phone interview soon enough . Hope to work in Digi as it seems quite nice to me . Hehe ...

So how's everyone here ? Really hope everyone is doing great in this new year . Don't forget its a beautiful dog dog woof year ~ Hehe ~ Miss everyone ... =D

A delayed post of pictures for the 31st January post ~

Gambling at my hometown .. crazy yet fun ~

One of the many elder cousin sister - ah hung ~

Err ... the cutest cousin sister who looks like hebe when she dun wear specs ~ !!

Minibar in my sister's house .

Living room in my sister's house ~ !

Hey hey hey ~ my damn cute cute nephew Ah Jun didi !!