Hola people ! I'm back ... hasta la vista baby !
This week has been a great week . Now let my mind replay what happened ...

25th - 28th January :
Went to my sister's house in Sg.Long and i was like holy ~ ... I really envy envy envy my sister and my brother-in-law . They bought a semi-d house in the new area . Cost at Rm638k . Renovation roughly cost Rm200k and so together Rm800k plus ... but its worth it i guessed . Its just opposite of Unitar . Lotsa lotsa teenagers there . Lotsa nice shops and cafe around there too . Very convinient for the citizens .

Went to alot of semi-d house but i have no idea why her house has 7 room and 4 toilets . The design were awesome with the mini-bar for drinkers . 7 Coolin airconds for cooling effects ? Haha ... nice too . 2 cute and cunted nephews of mine is very lovable too ! Hehe ...
Oh ya , I have a friend who came to KL from Johore . I asked him to come and visit me in my sister's house and he really did !! He drove all the way here .. my my my ... he also gave me a present that i requested !!! A damn cute lil puppy !! Hhee .. thanks Jeffrick !

On the 28th which is also chinese new year eve , went to my godma's house in nilai 3 for reunion dinner . Well , all my relatives were there too . Ate steamboat .. yummm ~

29th January :
Waking up very earling in the morning . Then follow my godparents to church for morning mass till 10am . Then went for breakfast and then they send me to my mother's side of relatives to get more more more redpackets !! Hahaha ... Had alot of fun there . As usual hanging out with my cousins and gamble . Went home at 8pm and i was alone at home . My dad has his own plan . My second brother went to Ipoh with his gf . My elder went over to his gf house . Gosh ... where's mine ?!?!?!

30th January :
Followed my father back to seremban in the afternoon . Haiyor ... really nothing to do today . So my cousins planned to go to Sepang F1 Circuit for GoKart . First timer for me and its awesome !! It rocks ... though its expensive . RM50 per 15minutes . We played for half an hour so its Rm100 ~ Haha .. just gone like that .. but its worth it i guess . Hopefully able to go with my friends too lark ! After a sweating race , went to Nilai for one dota match . Then just went back and have dinner .

Back home around 10pm . Did all the housechores and switched on the tv and look for programmes . My my my .. so many nice programmes ler . Got HK Mr.Beauty !! *drool* .. SHE in Entertaiment News Guess ... Then watched New Police Story . Oh my ... i love this movie so much . Can't get enough of Daniel Wu !! Hmm ... nice nice movie !

Later today , will go to Times for a movie . Jeffrick will accompany me . After movie i shall request him to fetch me to Sg Long again . Hehe ...

Ok so this year my angpao money is less than usual . No idea why , but the people seem to get less nowadays . Nevermind lark . Got Rm150 also can lark . Who asked me so lazy to go visit people . Haha ... My dad gave me a sum of money though he cannot give redpacket .. he gave me 500buck as a good luck thingy i guess . But Rm100 gone for the Go Kart already . Hmmm ..

Anyway , Happy Chinese Dog Year !! Its the year that i love so much . Cause i love dog puppies so much !! Oh yeah ~ Wooof wooof year ! Hehe ... Hope everyone have a great year this year . I also wish myself too . Many bad things happened last year ... oh well ... its already past ! Hehe ..

Tomorrow only post picture . Now tired wanna oi oi ~ Nitezz ...

Will be going to my sister's house at Sg.Long later lorhhh . She asked me to help her out in her new house . Gonna be busy busy busy ~

Chinese New Year is coming really sooooonnn ... are you guyz ready for it ? =X
Can't waittooo for it larkkk !

Heh , jC called me up yesterday and talked like an hour like that lorhh . That fella damn funny and cute as ever ... to bad he only love his biscuitman not me ~ !!

Oh ya , most probably I will be going to Penang on 31st of Jan with my brothers and cousinz ! Whose hometown is back there huh ? Maybe I could just come and pay a lil visit and ... *ehem* *wink* ... get extra angpaO !



Ohhhh , my lovely cutie Jay Shi Yuan Jie ~ !! [ on the left of coz =X ] from the duo Yuan Wei Jue Xing ~ !! ^^

Watched Guess in 8TV just now . Now really doing nothing . Suddenly someone came into my mind . Haha ... someone who I just should forget for now . Yet , I'm unable to . In my daily life , so many things i did will just reminds me of him . Worst still , Geisha really reminds of him so much . Though Jack held my hand so tight in the cinema , somehow i was hoping it was marcus . Haha .. why am i so foolish ? So many people out there caring and loving yet my hearts eager for one person .

If i could just make one wish like Chiyo aka Sayuri , where her wish came through . Then I certainly wish that this fragile heart of mine will never ever fall for a guy . A guy that I cant forget till now . Someone who I don't know how but dissapointed me badly . Haha .... I'm sure alot people will look down on me if I say I still tears for him huh ? Hmmm ... Shitto ... Time please pass by , make me busy , fill my mind with anything at all , make those memories of him fade away ...

Birthday girl's Cake = SS24

From left to right : JingHui aka bdaygal , May Yan , Caroline = Kim Gary

Caroline & Teck Jinn ~ NOT couple .. definitely ~!!

Look like Machi didi ? Haha ~ MrJohn

Once again , Jack & Jack aka JJ ~ taken at his house this morning !

Waking up early mornin on Saturday preparing myself for the day I waited . Hehe . Walked out to the bus station to wait for the bus . Waited for 20minutes yet no bus yet . So i decided even a cab might just do but unfortunately , none . Hmm ... how bad could this be . At last , I walked back home and drove to KTM myself . Just one problem , I'm going to leave the car at the parking lot for 1 night . " Should be safe gua .. " I said to myself ... =x

Reached at Midvalley at 1pm . Quickly ran to the cinema counter to bought the tickets . Gosh , this place is Much More crowded ... yeah I used the word Much More which practically doesn't exist .. haha ~ Anyway , its so crowded than usual . There's this chinese performance such as lion dance , drums and etc . Even the queue line is so damn long . Took me 35minutes to get my hand on the MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA tickets ! Yeah , Im so happy !!

Jack showed up a bit late as he had to wait for bus . When he reached , went to Sate King for our lunch . Only 2 reason why we went there . Every single shops that we went to was FULL and we are damn HUNGRY so can't wait any longer ~

Went shopping later on . Bought a pants at Soda . Cost me Rm110 but nice . Movie start at 5.30pm and ended at 8.30pm . Then we continued to shop for my clothes . Haha ... I feel so embarrassing . I shopped until everyone closed only I get to buy my shirt . Bought a Seed's sleeveless and sweater cost around Rm140 . Took a cab home to Jack's place .

Havent took our dinner eventhought its already 11.30pm . Hmmm ... sad case huh ? Packed 2 packs of mee goreng and went home . After finished everything , finally we're able to rest ! Such such such tiring day .

Today woke up at 10pm as Jack have another date today . So here I am , back home doing nothing again . Hehe ... but im so happy ... dont know why ~ just ..... smiling ~ !!

Memoirs of a Geisha . A very anticipating movie for the new 2006 . Whenever i heard of this movie i remembered of someone . Someone who promised to watch it with me in cinema but in the end ... the promise is totally broken . Anyway , I still have Jack to watch it with me today in Midvalley . Today as in saturday 21st ~

19th was the date of Geisha's released and also Jing Hui's birthday . Went to SS24 for dinner and to Sunway's Kim Gary for supper till 2 am just to celebrate her birthday . It was simple yet enjoyable . Bought a cheesecake for her ~ Yummy my favourite !!

Friday , went to Times to meet up my friend , John . Haha ... or should I say its Machi Didi's twin ? Hmmm ... thought of buying new clothes but in the end turn out .... empty handed !

Went back home and WOW ... my whole family was in with both my future sis-in-law . They are cleaning the house ... and I meant really CLEANING ... tons of rubbishes are thrown away . The storeroom which used to be sooooooooo crappy turns out to be empty now ..
Dad said that it will either be a karaoke room or my room lorr ~ Hhaaha ...

Chat with Yung just now and .... boy am I dissapointed with someone so badly . He will never change wont he ... hHmm ...

Oh boy am I happy today ! As promised , I will take my friends to Telok Gong for a seafood meal ... on me ~

Went to pyramid in the evening for a movie . Before the movie , the girls went shopping for valentines clothes ! Haha ... getting themselves a couple shirt . Not bad le . Nice ... so envy they are in relationship and sooo ambigious !! I don't want to celebrate valentines alone again .....

Back to the movie now , we watched a Thai movie " Long Khong " . Its an 18PL movie so I thought it would be good enough for me . It is good !! I like it ... geezz ... nothing can be more disgusting than this movie itself !!! A must watch for all horror movie . Its mostly bout spirits and voodoos . Never believed it but still nice le .

Went to shop again till 9pm . Damn was I hungry . Reached Telok Gong around 10pm ... and its not supper its dinner !! People starting to leave and we are coming in .

So ordered crabs , prawns , lala fried beehoon , some sorta lala-likable-seafood ... i really dont know what its called !! then one more vegetable lorr ... 5person for rm100 ... so I guess its ok that it's on me this time .. haha .. cause im really enjoying ~

19Th January , 2006 !!! It's my friends birthday and wishing her HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!
OFFICIALLY you are now 20 years old !!~~~ Congratulation !!!
Ehheihehe ....

One thing that regret today .... is that Why I never asked Jack bout his class schedule !! Else , he would be eating with us already ... arggg .... > <"

Monday :-

Its a day that I feel like I need to blog ... yeah I Need .. hahaha ~

I was in Jack's place for these few days . Been really guilty cause he have lotsa assignment and homework yet he have to take care a baby ... which is me ! His class will start at 9am so awaken at 7.30am . I switched on my handphone and I receive an early morning message .

Boy am I suprised .
Sent at 6.55am 16th January 2006 . Senders name Marcus Tan . I thought he had already forgotten me . Am I surprised . Hmm ... he told me he is going to Indonesia that time just like what he told me before . To have a look at his dad's factory over there . He's going to take over his dad's business one day as he promised . Oh well ...

Had a real stomach ache when I reached Shah Alam's Ktm around 10am . Darren and Caroline came to picked me up . Haha ... nice couple ~ Then went over to her house to get my contact lens . Goodness , she gave me a free contact lens for first timer . Haha ... great so I can save more money !

Oh ... finally my car came today . Drove around with it just to test it out . Boy , how I dislike autogear car . I really miss the oldy manualgear car . At least its more flexible to be controlled . Oh well , wont complain much at least got car to drive le . Thought of giving a new colour to the car .... metallic blue or black ? Hmmm .... no idea yet ...

Does anyone here pluck their beard out ? I don't know why I did it today . I really dislike my chin havin uneven beard at my chin . Rather than shaving everyday , I decided to pluck everything out !! Ouch ... its painful but kinda high ~ ~ ~ =p

Nothing much else , just lookin forward for this few weeks . Getting new clothes , Geisha-ing with Jack and gonna go Telok Gong for seafood soon enough . Yummy !!! Seafooooood ~~
but my tooth is really paining now . Geezz ... help !!!!

I feel like my life is putting a mask on my face . To be honest , I feel like I'm Running away from all the troubles . I feel like I'm just avoiding and making myself Worst than before .

Until this day this moment this second , I could not forget about Marcus . I really have no idea what kind of curse or seal he placed on me . Everynight since then , I've been thinking of him and it turns to tears . Been taking advises from alots of friends . Did everything yet I still find myself Here in this condition .

I try to make myself busy and even try to make more friends . Thinking that I could somehow find someone to replace him . How naive ...
These days , I wanted to message him but I do not Dare . For I fear i would interupt and make disturbance in his Life . Whenever I saw him appeared online in my list , I only dare to click his window box and that's it . I don't even dare to send any message to him . I've been ignored for 2 weeks already . Why does people always break their promises ? If the promise can't be kept than its better to just keep in your heart . When Promises is Broke , people get Hurt . People get Dissapointed . People get Mad .

I tried to forget this person . I wanted to delete him off my memories . I wanted to hate him . But why ? Why I could not ... instead of forgetting ... the things he said and did to me keeps lingering in my mind . Gosh ... I feel so stupid and lame .

This is nothing right ? There are so much things more outside waiting for me . I'm sure my mother would not want to see me this way .
This afternoon , I saw another butterfly in my house again . Been seeing butterflies flying around lately . Though I'm not someone who is superstition , but people said that it would be my mum then . Hehe ... if it's real , I'm so happy . =) hehe ...

I'm really freaking bored now . I wish my new car will come soon !! I just wanna drive away from home . Go get a job or whatever . Meet some friends . Hmm ... if I keep staying in the house alone , things will get really bad . All the bad stuffs will come in my mind .... Phew ~

Oh ya , I haven't buy my new clothes yet . Hopefully tomorrow can go buy le . Chinese New Year is coming soon . My brother invited me to join them for Penang trip durin the 3rd day of chinese new year . Hehe ....

Artist of the Month : -

Name : Will Liu Geng Hong
Album : Rainbow Heaven
Tracks : -
01 . Cai Hong Tian Tang [ Part 2 of Jay Chow's Maple MV ]
02 . Shi Luo De Ru Chang Quan
03 . Xin Dong , Xin Tong [ Duet with Xu Hui Xin ]
04 . Xin Ling Jiao Zhan
05 . Bu Shuo
06 . Zhi Dao Zui Hou
07 . Ying Wei You Ni
08 . Qing Hua [ A song written together with Jay Chow ]
09 . Xi Yu Zhuang Qi
10 . Chuang Shi Ji
11 . Yi Kao [ Demo ]

No doubt he is a good friend of Jay . Jay have spent over a million for Will's coming new MV ... for Free ! Haha ... A very nice album to have ...

http://rapidshare.de/files/10498681/Jay___26963_.wmv.html

There you go , the download link ::::

Just wanted to add something .
Come on people , after you read , post something on the chatterbox maaa ~
So that I can know who came maaaa ~
Don't be so Lazy le ...
My day doesn't seem very smooth . Have been really good staying home alone all day long .
Worst I'm so hungry now ...

Now I'm going to post some pictures of the toys I got from my friends .

Snoooopy that I got from my brother Javaron ~

Mashimaro that I got from Ah Pau ~

From bottom left clockwise : White Xmas doggy from Wai Hoe
Doggy biting bones from Joe
Doggy in sweater from Tracy
Handphone holder Doggy from Yih Wei

This is really proves i love puppy so much eh ? Hehehe ... This is the card from Wai Hoe and i really like his cute puppy drawing le ~


Thanks lorrr for all these , I'm still waitin some presents from my friends ! ~

Here I am Back again ~

I would'nt Deny that I'm not fully recovered yet

My feelings are yet so weak so fragile

Haha , just like The lyrics in one of the S.H.E songs

" I felt the pain yet im unable to put it in words ... "

First of all , i wanna fank All my friends who've been so caring . Hehe ... though i've been a jerk to You guyz but you All never stop helping me in the End .

I Guess that's what true Friends are

So Mr Marcus , I would really like to say

Your way of being a friend is such a Selfish Act

It's a decision not me but for Your own sake

It truely Hurts me so much until today

Though i Know the tears aren't worthy

But "they" just Come ...

Recently , I've been trying to get to know more friends All Around . Hoping to forget those unneccessary sad stuffs . What amazed me is that some still remember me after such long time seeing me . Mr Yung and Ronnie is the example .

Yung had always knew I Blocked him yet he Didn't Delete me off from His list . Till I unblocked him and had a Nice chat with him the other day .

Debbie , thanks Alot ... I mean Alot ... you Had given me a piece of advise that no One else Had . Maybe you experienced the Life I've gone through . You understand it so Well .

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Life hasn't been really good . Many unexpected things happened . I've been to Sungei Wang to shop for new clothing . It's a lesson to be learnt !

Targeted a pants that i Feel so much on it .

" Can I have a saiz 32 for this please ? "

" Hold on aaa ... "

So stood there waiting while chatting with my friend

" Sorry we only left 28 29 and 34 worr ... "

Dissapointingly Walked out of the shop and searched around the whole Area .

No luck , No other shops having the same design .

Then i saw another pants of other design but not so strong "feeling" Towards it . So I thought of Surveying around just In Case if there's better one . After few hours , couldn't Find any better one so went back there . Could I be more dissapoint or should I say I'm Stupid ?

Most of the pants that I've targeted on Has Been Sold Out . Everything was there now It's Not .

They will only Restock next Thursday .

Feel terrible ...

Things I wanted will never come to me ...

Things I don't wish for comes non-stop ...

Just the same as the people around me ...

[ Moral of the story : If you like and feel for something , go ahead , chase for it . Do not wait till It's Gone ... thinking back " Why I Did not appreciate and Grab it back then ? " ... Then it will be too Late . ]

I'm Sure everyone knew this fact of Life .

I was in Times Square with a few close friend of Mine yesterday . Went to meet Jack there too . I never thought he's such a Nice Nice guy with a Nice Nice smile . Captivated me ...

What I feel bad was that I've been using his whole just to accompany Me .

Worst is that he Spent me for Lunch and Dinner .

Thank you ...

Hope things will turn Out better ....

My dad did not come back last night . Until now , i did not See him . No idea why , Now I'm worried bout him .

So many things happened . Can't think of it so much . Anything , I'll update Later ~

By the way , this MV made me cry though its nothing special . Just the song and the meaning behind it made me cried badly .

http://rapidshare.de/files/10570012/S.H.E_-_Laurel_Fairy_MV.rar.html

It's S.H.E - Yue Gui Nu Shen

A really beautiful Song .

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Hui Juin + Me + Carmen + Wai Pheng = In McD at KK

Chi Chung + Me = The Curve after counting down

Ying Yin + Me = Again at the Curve

Mun Choon + Me + Teck Jinn + Chin Siong = no Comment

Me + Wai Hoe = Separated picture cause he don't want to take picture with me at Enquite Kitchen

Me + Jack = At a sitting place in Times ...

Ying Yin + Me = Natural smile from her ~ I shouldn'd be in this Pic !

Mc + Me + Cc = Boring .... In KL Sentral waiting for the train ~

Mr Yung while Viewing his webcam ...

Another Mr Yung blurry ~

Ronnie with his new hairstyle ~
Jack .... stolen ...

I cant sleep . Since 5am , my stomach felt intense pain . Not a pain i usually felt . Its so painful . I do not know what to do . I keep vomitting and havin diarrhea . Its like taking my life away . Its like asking me to end it now . So painful .... Marcus , i wanted to message you so badly at this time . Yet i could not because i do not want to make any trouble . I feel like shit now . I really wish to end it now ... so suffering and hurting and painful ...

Hmm .. this SHE's new MV - Dont want to be your friend .
I never thought the MV would be this way ... make me cry and laugh in the end . A must watch ... cause its bout homosexuality .

http://rapidshare.de/files/9369635/jshemv.wmv.html

Haha ... i've been breaking records again . Cried whole night till 5am and tried to sleep . Then 10am woke up ... tears rolled down my cheek again . Till now .... im so tired . Been all alone since then . Im so lost . Had a short chat with Axel just now . He is indeed a person with the brain . He understand my feeling well , perhaps it happened to him before .

Gosh , i dont think i can trust another word from anyone more . More i trust more i hurt more i cried more i feel like suiciding . Hahahahaha ....

Jia Chang , gor gor will die soon loh . Haha ... then i really can become your jiajia maid liao . Until now i havent drink or eat anything . Yet im not hungry . Can save more food and money from now on . Heh ....

Jia Chang called me just now . I was crying throughout the conversation . I dont feel like talking so i ask him to put down the phone . My heart now ... the wounds are so much deeper now . Eversince Kin and my mother left me , my heart was so painful . Painful enough to make me have sleepness nights , unable to eat my meals properly ... and even crying in the middle of the night all alone . Just now , i've received a really great news to increase the wound and hurting .

How stupid and foolish can i be ? No matter what they said , its just a temporary sweet words which will never be kept as a promise . I talked to Jia Chang just now and i said i wanted to suicide ... to most of my friends they knew that i hate and discrimate people who suicide because i think its a foolish act . But now ... i might just join into that group . Im so tired of this ... plu always have to face this kind of experiece which is so hurting . Why cant i be the one who fooled and played others instead of being the opposite ones . Anyway , the person who did this is definitely not Jia Chang as he is always there for me . Someone who i think is real to me .

Wow , its the year 2006 already . Soon enough , my batch will turn to 20 this year . No more teens just getting older .

Went to Ikano to countdown yesterday night . Nothing much there just having lotsa lotsa crazy time with my friends . Most of all , Nicholas Teo was there . Sadly he only sang 2 songs !! Such cutie .. hahaha ~ The fireworks were great , the people were crazy , the place was crowded ... just a usual thing to see everywhere every new year eve .

It was really a tiring night as i have to drive all the way of the heavy traffic . Well , we did enjoyed ourselves even in car . Went on singing and screaming , yelling to the other people outside . Haha ... finally reached home at 4am .

~~ } H A P P E E N E E W Y E A A R R 2 0 0 6 { ~~

Last year was really really a tough year for all of us . As for me ? I lost 3 person that i loved so much . 2 person that i thought could share my life with them . One more person that i loved so much eversince i was born . Till now , i cant stop mourning for her death . Its so hard to lose someone in your life . Then , came to lost my dearest Nokia handphone during xmas eve . So generous of me to giveaway a hp as a xmas gift ~

At least hoping this year will be much much better ....

Recently , i've been thinking bout people . How can people be so hypocrating ? At one moment they say this , another moment they do something else yet ... they blame us for everything that is not going right . These people always thought that they are such a matured being . Thinking that whatever they do is the best for everyone else yet they are actually selfish person who only thinks of themselves ?

So here i just wanted to say ... why should we say something that we never meant ? God provided us with brains and heart . Its wise to make good use of it . Most of all , be a man . If you could say something out from your mouth , make sure you grant it . Dont try to reverse everything you said before . Promise is such an important thing . Its not merely a word . Its like a life ...