Kinda weird . Wake up kinda early ... but when im in someone's place , i slept like a pig . Haha ... maybe im not used to my own place .. alone again ? Dad brought my mum to hospital even before i woke up . So practically im alone in the house . Just switched on my pc and let some songs to be played loud . At least with music , i aint gonna be so lonely . Music ... my life ~
Did nothing much today , just watched Naruto and sleep sleep sleep . Something so missing ... and i felt kinda terrible . Guiltiness ... i made someone's day so bad . Everything just turn upside down for him . Sorry again ... and please don't angry with it okay ? =)
Lawrence called me later night and have a chitchat . Its been so long since we talk on the phone already . Finally , today i gave him a solid answer . I'm sure he will be very dissapointed . Im sorry Lawrence . Regardin bout you are going to start a new life in Penang , seriously , i will support you all the way . If im given this chance , im sure i will do it too . You know me quite well . I will regret if i never put my hardwork on somethings and just give up . I will wanna try everything in life . So Lawrence , i hope when you start a new life there ... don't forget those good things here ... as for those bad stuffs , take it as an experience and lesson in life . All the best !
Around midnight , called Hao before he slept and just wished him all the best . Hope he will take good care of health . Really worried .
13th December 2005
Around 11am , Chris called me . It was rather uncomfortable chat for me . Just remind me of someone ... just hang up my phone when they want . Pissed me off . So far in my life , i've never hang up anyone's phone . Maybe i should do it sometime to let people feel it ? Hmmphh ... and i thought of going to visit him but he already has a pack schedule ... so basically im free again ~
I went back to sleep and i have a nightmare . Whenever my mood is really bad , im sure to have a nightmare . Around 2pm only i woke up .... geng neh ! Then , went online to check my pc . I just request my brother to reformat it before i went to sleep last night . So i have to reinstall alot of softwares inside . At least , i wont be disconnected again and again and again !! At least , i wont claimed the title of DC king ! Haha ...
Chatted with Alastair later on . Again , i made someone rather not happy ? Sorry again ... dont know what have i done today . Mistakes all over ...
Have been massaging my mum plenty of times today . Its never been like this . Just now , while i was massaging , i teared . My heart felt intense pain to see her gettin worst each passing day . Now her voice is fading . She can merely talk sofly . What can i do ....
Oh ya , chat with my ex-fren just now . He asked me to get lost ... he repeated twice . I cant stand his attitude . If a friend doesnt be truthful to him , who will ? Truth always hurt but as a friend , i just always wanted to be truthful and honest . If that's wrong .. you never know what is real meaning of a friend ... i've blocked and deleted him for life now . Mr Lam Yan Yee , you asked for it . I really dont know what happened today . I cant stand it anymore .... i fear i might do something out of control ....
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